So as the title says I'm taking a break or hiatus, whatever you would like to call it from DeviantArt. Now, this is a personal choice so it's not anyone's fault. This is about me. I've had enough of this cycle that I put myself through, and it makes zero sense to continue it. Now what cycle? The cycle of me picking myself up in regards to my art, my writing, and feeling all types of proud, and then in the next moment, I'm kicking myself down, berating myself, downgrading my achievements and especially comparing myself to other people! Like I hate when I do that, and I need to learn to stop. I have to learn to feel proud, I have to learn to be confident, and I have to learn that it is ok that I'm not at the place where I want to be.
When I was doing traditional art, I was not the best artist in the world and my technique was horrible, but I was proud of everything I did. I was confident in my ability like no other, I held my head high and felt uber happiness at each drawing I produced. I may have been critical on my art, but it was positive critique and a thirst to improve. I was in a much better place than when I got my tablet and came to DA 2 years ago. I did it to myself. So it's no one one to blame but myself.
So I'm taking a break from DA. I need to put an end to the cycle, and I'm pretty sure you guys are tired of seeing these journals I put up about being positive and not finding yourself, and confidence, but then I turn around and make a journal about how I'm not doing those things. I'm taking a hiatus to actually get a grip and be real with myself. After all if I don't believe in my work and what I produce, then how can I expect someone else to?
Now am I gonna draw while I'm away? Maybe, maybe not. How long will I be away? I don't know. I can be away a few days to a few months. I'll still be responsible though with my groups. Like
and I wanted to rebuild and revamp CYY so, as the leader of CYY I will take responsibility and do that with him. Also
I will do whatever I need to for the group. Other than that I'm gone with the wind.
I love you guys, and thanks for supporting me Kittens